Received KJ’s report book. He did well for all subjects. Glad that he is happy with his results. I am happy too. Then came the news that the class that he is promoted to is the best in pri 3 level.
Don’t be mistaken that i am talking “wind breeze words” (风凉话）, but i am not too pleased with that. KJ is not someone who is consistent with work. He really really pushed himself very hard for this examination. How am i going to tell him that he is to push himself just as hard or even harder and yet he will never get to the first 3 positions. Now, in primary schools, there is this called Honors Day when only the tops get on stage to receive prizes. The rest – no need to attend school. You are thinking that “that’s good right? those who dun get on stage no need to feel the pinch on that day what!!! and still get one more school holidays than the so called top students”
Wrong! before the Honors Day, all students are made to sit in the hall to see the “rehearsal” of the Honors Day. Do schools care about the emotional development of students ? i doubt so…. Last year, KJ came home depressed after seeing his best friend “rehearsing” on stage to receive prize. Even thou he was then the 10th in class (second best in the level), he told me he felt he was the “infinity last of the class”. I was perturbed by his expression. How did he know the meaning of “Infinity”. I only studied the meaning of that word in ….???? poly….???
Then, i had encouraged him to do better for the next year so that he too could go on stage. This year, even though he had pushed soooo hard on himself, he came in as 5th in the class. Well, closer to the top three position but still cannot get to the stage yet. So, next year, he will be in the top class with the top cream. Not that i am down looking at my son, but those students in there are of different calibre. It is a cut-throat situation, where students do not aim for 90 marks and above. They are going for the full marks. how am i going to tell him that there is nothing to aim for anymore ….
i do not need a top student as a son. i want a son who is happy studying for his education. So, apart from me studying my new subject for next year (science), i need to pay more attention on his emotion development. i have to continue to encourage him to work hard and yet shield him from the unnecessary peers pressure…. haiz…
School life has never been so stressful till my own son went to school. One more year, KZ will be primary one too…. by then i will have DOUBLE stress. (lets not talk about mei mei yet…. ok!!!)